Going on a bike ride again. By myself. And I won’t say how sad I am that I wait and wait for someone and then they decide not to text back or go with me even if they said they would.
I’m scared every time I go by myself and it doesn’t get easier. Every time it’s scary. Why?
Since I started this whole working out every day thing :)
I’ve had some changes. I was RELIGIOUSLY counting calories and doing so opened my eyes to what I was eating and made me more conscious of how much I was eating.
I stopped counting calories. I eat intuitively- eat when I’m hungry, stop when I’m satisfied and eat healthily!
I’ve also decided that it doesn’t matter what I do, as long as I work out at least an hour most days of the week.
I’ve learned to not sweat the small stuff. One missed day, one unhealthy meal, one time of eating until I’m really full isn’t going to throw me off track. And the scale and my body reflect this.
I’m really happy about this and I feel like I’m moving in the right direction.
was required tonight. Just a bit. ;)
Wait all fricken day to go swim with my friend. The whole time waiting on pins and needles and she like… doesn’t text back and keeps me waiting.
Finally I just call her and we go to the lake. After a bunch of waiting and junk.
Then find out she doesn’t really want to swim. She just wants to sit and tan. Like. WTH?
So with homework and everything else I have to do today I only got about 10 minutes of swimming in. (It turns out the lake was rather gross so I didn’t stay in very long).
I’m bumming!
… waiting for people. Seriously, you want to do something, cool. Don’t like not answer texts and all that. Set up a time and let’s do this bitch.
I don’t want to wait.
Is that so bad?
Sorry friends and family, I haven’t posted in ages. I’ve been so busy with school and being so busy and I’m sorry, but Tumblr has seriously been moved to the back burner. I hope noone minds, because I wouldn’t care if I knew you all were out there living and loving your life!!
I’ve been biking like a mad woman, hiking like a mountain woman and eating healthy (mostly) when I’m hungry. Seems like the good life to me. :)
So. With no further adieu, healthy ho!
…. mix that shit by hand.
Even if it’s just not as good. I’m still drinking/chewing my strawberry bananna protein shake.
I just got back from my 1 hour and 20 minute bike ride, and I feel so much better.
I was so wound up and stressed about this assignment and now… I know it’s no biggie! Man, when I think about how much better I feel and how much happier I am due to working out it makes me think about the world and how many people DON’T work out. That’s a lot of negativity…
Did anyone else feel it? The oddness? Normally when I have a super weird day usually at least a few other people agree, they had one too.
I met my first real challenge of this week. I stepped on the scale and GASP I had gained a pound. Oh that little thing called patience is often times hard for me to come by, at least when it pertains to my weight. I got over it. I realized that I have already lost 3 lbs and kept it off so I really should just be happy!
Then went for a bike ride, by myself, even though it was off and on raining all day. Ya, I’m proud. I was still terrified. And I realize that I hate sitting around waiting for one of my friends to go on a bike ride or hike or what ever. I’m so impatient.
Other than that… My day went well, but it was still odd.
How was your day?
Today is a challenging day. I weighed myself and I’ve gained weight. I’ve been working SO hard and eating SO healthy! Seriously, biking AT LEAST an hour a day, with the last two days consisting of a 2.5 hour bike ride and a 2.5 hour hike up a MOUNTAIN!! Granted, this hard work has only been for a week.
I know I need to stay positive.
I know I need to be patient.
I know I won’t reach my goal without sticking to it.
I just hear that voice in the back of my head, the doubt telling me I’ll never get there. If I could just get over this weight hump. I’ve been stuck at my current weight for months. If I could just lose 10 lbs then I would have hope.
So I haven’t posted in a few days, but things have been going extremely well!
I’m so in love with getting outside and working out EVERY DAY! I haven’t had a day off all week and idec. I am feeling kind of tired today, though, which is either because I hiked up a fricken MOUNTAIN yesterday, or because it’s whale week…
Anyhow, some cool things I did this week:
1.) Biked EVERYDAY!
2.) Went on a super long bike ride on Friday with a friend and we did some awesome off trail mountain biking (burns TONS of calories BTW!). We saw three moose including a very protective Mama and her baby. We had to promptly turn around and head back UP the hill :) It was a 2.5 hour bike ride!
3.) Hiked up a mountain. Picture below (not taken by me):
This shows you how intense the trail is. Now I will include a picture I took on the way down:
You can see my toes at the bottom of the page for some perspective. We took the larger trail that you can see on the way up and that city below is where I live. So from this point we are about 1/2 the way up and you see all those little rocks? It got worse and worse as we got up until there just wasn’t a trail anymore. Just a bunch of rocks to scramble up. It was pretty terrifying, not gonna lie.
So we had to turn around because we took this guy:
We could even see the top, we were so close, but it just wasn’t safe. We’ll finish it another day. It was about 10:45 and the sun set so fast, so we headed back down and it’s a good thing because the fog started to roll in. We did get to witness the pretties sunset ever, though!
And another of the sunset at a little rest stop on the way down. The sun looks a little hazy from the fog rolling in.
No worries, we made it home safely. Now I’m off to go on another bike ride! Tootles! :D
My life is changing, it’s going so well and I’m so happy. I am SO happy I almost don’t know if I can take it! I’m still in shock over how awesome my life is right now!
I honestly think it started with my first bike ride alone. I was terrified. I wanted to get out so bad and exercise, but I was scared to go by myself. This was compacted by the fact that I didn’t have anyone to go with. Seriously, I was such a loner. I would sit at home alone and wish I was outside riding my bike or doing anything to enjoy the great outdoors, preferably with someone else. The problem was that I was becoming a hermit. I would sit at home, do home work and would rarely make time for friends. It seemed to take me out of my comfort zone too much. That meant leaving the house, being somewhere in clothes I felt uncomfortable in, being around people who may look at me and judge me, being with friends who may hurt me, not sticking to a set daily schedule of things that were “safe”.
I was so depressed. I would finish home work and sit and be so sad. I would LONG to go outside and ride my bike but I was so scared. I didn’t have anyone to go with. Then BOOM. I realized life is too short to sit around and WISH you did something. To want something so bad, but to limit yourself. That’s what I was doing! LIMITING MYSELF!
It all came down to overcoming my own fears. I was afraid to go out alone. I was afraid to reach out to a friend who would hurt me (hey it’s happened!). I was afraid to do new things and be flexible and simply go out of my comfort zone. I blew the walls of my comfort zone down and I am happier than I have been in longer than I can remember. I feel like I am allowing myself to live my life. Oh my gosh, I’m tearing up just writing this, but it’s so true.
I can’t even express how happy I am that I took that first step. Since then, I began contacting friends from where I live that I haven’t hung out with in a long time, if ever. My sister who I haven’t seen in a year, my coworkers and friends from school… I can’t even explain the 180 degree difference in my life I am experiencing. Sitting at home alone, depressed —-> Biking, hiking, loving life surrounded by friends and family!
I’m sorry this is so long, but I just want you all to know you can achieve your dreams and be happy. If you’re anything like me, the only thing standing in your way is yourself. Try new things! Take risks! Do the thing you’ve always wanted to do! Life is too short… Don’t limit yourself. You. Are. Limitless.
So the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th were spent NOT eating healthy and not really exercising, other than about a 45 minute swim in the lake. I think it’s ok to take a break once in a while, but in the future I need to work on making healthy choices even if I’m not at home.
Other than that, I went for my second bike ride BY MYSELF. It’s scary at first, but I’m starting to think that I will be safe. The way I see it is this: I can die riding my bike by being mauled by a bear or mugged by a homeless person, or I can die sitting at home on the couch. At least riding my bike is fun. I do have to say though I would almost rather stay inside than expose myself to even fractionally risking being mauled by a bear.
Which brings me to my next point. HOLY cow I have grown so much. I have become more independent and I love it. I have opened myself to change and it’s the best feeling. It’s scary and liberating and healthy and great. I am finally out and about doing the things I have always wanted to do, but was too scared to do. And I can see my life changing before my eyes. It really is a powerful thing. I am no longer afraid of stupid small things like meeting with my host teacher or reaching out to people. I am making more friends. I am happier and INFINITELY healthier. SO HAPPY! :D So BTW if you’re ever in AK message me and we’ll get together! :D
Now for my question.
So I am counting calories. Long term this is not how I want to live my life, but I am using it as a guide to help me eat healthier portions and foods. It helps me simply be consious of what I am eating and motivates me to make healthier decisions. So my question is this:
I know there is a debate about counting calories as good and the best way to lose weight vs. counting calories as dumb- we should simply fuel our bodies. My personal outlook is that eating and eating healthy should eventually become natural otherwise it will fail because eating is natural; it’s all about fostering healthy eating habits. I just don’t know what my body needs to be fueled… So what are your thoughts on this debate? Any advice about the whole fueling thing and counting calories vs not counting calories??
I just went for a bike ride. By. Myself! YEAH! This is huge for me. I was terrified, but I’m so glad that I went. It was a great work out. I was so stoked though that I totally hauled butt for the first like 15 minutes then averaged about 8 mph the rest of the time. So it only counted for like 450 or so calories on MFP, but what ev.
