Cristine's Once Upon a Time

I haven’t even glanced at the little tumblr icon on my phone in close to a week. Life has been so busy.

My husband graduated from college- top of his class! Yay! So did my best friend so this life event really meant a party, a dinner out, a surprise gifting session… Anything I could do to make it special.

I’ve been fighting yet another cold. I think it’s more of an allergic reaction to the dust/mold that grows under the snow and is released when snow melts. I also think it was brought on by all my stress!

I sold one of our cars. Yes! That took a lot of work and was very stressful.

I watched my brother-in-law fight in the AFC and win! He is kind of a badass.

I packed up my classroom and had my last day at work yesterday. It was so bittersweet. I’m ready to move on to the next stage of my life but I will miss those folks.

Now- we are faced with the somewhat intimidating challenge of packing everything up, cleaning up and moving out of state in 11 days. I’m sure that makes it sound easy, but there will be a lot of small jobs and things that need to be done before we can go.

Not to mention- family BBQ tonight and friend BBQ tomorrow!

Deep breaths.

Maybe because it’s my Friday?  Maybe because I have been keeping my chores finished so my house is clean?  Maybe because my day at work was an easy/fun one with lots of people who I care about and for some reason lots of hugs from kids. :)

It doesn’t matter why.  It feels so good to be back to my happy self. 

Husband just turned in his last assignment and has one final left.  I am more excited for him than I was for myself.  YESSS!

I am stressed out of my mind.

1. Working full time at a crazy busy/stressful job.
2. Trying to sell one of our cars and anything else we won’t take when we move.
3. Keeping my house spotless in case my landlord needs to show it before we move out-
4. Oh yeah, getting ready to move and all the little details that go along with it.
5. Making sure all the family received my husband’s graduation announcements.
6. Not to mention cooking the meals, trying to plan healthy stuff.
7. Planning going away presents for my friends and coworkers.

I don’t even know everything, but I have been so emotional about moving.  Leaving my job and friends.  Leaving my home state.  I am having a hard time coming to grips with it. My heart is breaking a little bit and I’m so scared of moving.  What if it’s awful down there?

My husband is in his last week of his senior year and is ear deep in finals/projects.  I’ve been trying to get things done for him so he doesn’t have to.  I’ve also been trying to not stress him out with my stress.  It’s hard when my main sounding board isn’t an option for this time being.  My second closest friend is my mom and she’s so busy too.  I feel like…  Even though I have friends I don’t open up to them about every thing so now that I need to talk I can’t just talk to them when we don’t already have that level of trust.  If that makes sense.

Guys, I’m kind of freaking out. 

Instead of going to the store and buying stuff for chocolate chip cookies I decided to eat dark chocolate.

So happy about that.

So much to do today and I’m HAPPEEEE!

I work as an interventionist with 4th graders. I LOVE kids and really like my job.

This move has really had me contemplating if I should pursue my degree/career path further in the small town I am moving to. I CAN NOT seem to get a job as a teacher. It has caused me to doubt myself.

Then this happened:

At the end of the year we test students on reading fluency, how many correct words they can read in a minute, and look at their progress throughout the year.

Because I work with the 4th grade teachers I sort of end up doing what they want me to do and they didn’t want me putting any fluency program into place. Towards the end of the year I decided to do it anyway. I’m glad I did.

One of the students from my group read at 158 words per minute and he was at about 70 words per minute at the beginning of the school year! He doubled his CWPM!!

This. That feeling. Makes teaching worth it and instilled a renewed motivation towards getting a job in the education field when I move.

The good:
I ate really well today. Lots of fresh fruit and a salad for lunch.
I logged my calories.

The bad:
I was over my calorie limit.
I probably ate more than I should have at dinner. Homemade chicken, spinach, red pepper and cheese enchiladas what?

The chubby:
This morning I had to abandon outfit #1. It seems to be a common problem these days- my pants are too tight. I could squeeze into them, but truthfully I would spend all day uncomfortable. Like- feeling unable to breathe. So I switched into leggings and a skirt- still somewhat uncomfortable, but it was an improvement.

Tomorrow I will:
Stick to my calorie goal.
Work out, even if for only 15 minutes.
Drink more water.

I feel like if I focus on those things, anything else will be above and beyond. Like tidying up the house. Of course I will have time to do that too, but it has been my priority for a while now and I had the thought today, “your body is more important than your house.” Yeah. Profound.

I need to get back on track. Any advice on how to get moving in the right direction? What do you do when you need the extra push or just feel like you must get out of a slump?

I am feeling like this laziness has bit me in the butt and it’s a vicious cycle. The laziness leads to poor eating which makes me feel cruddy which leads to more laziness. How can I break this cycle.

As a side note I just want to add that I don’t want this post to seem negative. I have been actually very happy and haven’t felt depressed (even though I am gaining and am likely closer to my HW) regardless of how I look. I just really want to feel more comfortable in my clothes.

Set nutritional goals for myself. Small steps. I don’t think I have tried this yet but I need to get down to the bottom of things.

Quit thinking that things will change when I move. Yes they will but that doesn’t give me the freedom to eat whatever.

Try to stay positive.

Try to stay motivated.

Looking through old photo posts. 99.99% are junk food and beer.

No wonder my pants have been snug lately! Eye opener for sure.